It’s less than a month to my birthday and just a week or so after that Christmas will be upon us. When I was growing up, I used to despise the fact that my birthday was right on top of Christmas. Inevitably, you always ended up getting a bit of a raw deal compared to others who had their birthday a good way away from the Christmas period. My presents seemed to be a merger of the two events… roughly equivalent to 1 and 1/2 times a set of prezzies compared to the two sets that other people got. At least, it always felt like that.
These days I’m still not much of a birthday fan but my reasons are entirely different. As an adult, birthdays have been pretty depressing in the past. The onset of time just reminds me how little I have done with my life, how much remains on my great wishlist of things to do, places to visit, people to see.
However, I turn 33 this year and for once I feel quite settled about it. Whether I will feel the same in just over a fortnight’s time we’ll have to wait and see. However, the fact that I am now on my way to being ordained… that I have found my vocation and am actively involved in preparing for it… things feel much smoother. I know where I am going and what I am here to do. There is a lot less restlessness in me… or rather that restlessness has a sense of direction to it all now.
Anyway, if anyone feels so inclined, you see what I am wishing for this birthday and christmas by looking at my Amazon wishlist. What can I say… I’m not proud! Buy me something! 🙂